Comfortable Zone as an Excuse
“a knowledge is about how to do and a desire is about why to do”
I am currently studying master degree in Bandung. With my wife that is fighting also to achieve specialist degree at the same time, that is the point of choosing Bandung to be our destination. My daughter who is less than 6 years old also strengthen my desire to go to Bandung City because I don’t want her to not be able to speak bahasa fluent enough as our mother language.
But if I search deep within my mind, is it the reason? What if I am just fear about move from my comfortable zone? I do realize that my english ability is not good enough. In the end, I realize that I already make that statement as an excuse.
I never train my english much enough to make my self used to english. But if I remember their history, a lot of my friend that have a lower english basic can receive a better score in english test. It means that I do have an ability to get my desired score. Yes, I have the ability but at the same time I lose the will to fight until the end. I am too comfortable in my current zone.
Of course, the difference is the time needed to get a great score. Someone having a basic in english needs a shorter time than those who didn’t possess english at all. There is a requirement for that, you need both knowledge and willpower. In my case, losing the will to fight just end my development.
I am truly grateful for being able to have a discussion with my friend last week. It opened up my mind to continue my study into doctoral degree.
I still have a lot of time to make my self used to english.
Hope I can travel abroad to pursue international doctoral degree with my beloved family.
Amin.
